Oh To Be A Small Child Again...

C'mon, admit it. You catch yourself at least one time a day thinking that life would be easier if you could just be a kid again. Well, I've decided that I am going to make time to be a "kid" again. In fact, my roommate and I started tonight. We ate chips and watch Barbie and the Diamond Castle. Laugh if you will but I enjoyed myself COMPLETELY! It was a fabulous get away from the pressures of real life...aka rent, homework, a job, cleaning checks...gag. And now it's off to bed where I will dream of a prince who will one day come to sweep me off my feet. He will be riding a horse and wielding a shiny sword to fight off the terrible monster who keeps him from me! Yes, yes, I'm quite happy with that.

Saturdays

Sleeping in.
Cleaning.
Baking banana bread.
Movies.
Playing games.
Taking naps.
Reading a book.
Writing a book.

These are just a few reasons why I love Saturdays. I mean, c'mon! What's not to love? Relaxation on every level. Not to mention that the snow outside is so stinkin' AMAZING! I'm sitting here with a cup of hot chocolate, watching You've Got Mail (my favorite movie) and the aroma of freshly baked banana bread is lingering all around the apartment. Seriously folks, how can a day be any better?

Really? W.O.W.

Not even two full days have passed and I already have another complaint to add to the currently rapidly growing list of annoyances. Today's pick? The male sex. Someone please gag me.
Why is it that when a young, outgoing, smart, funny woman merely asks how a young man is enjoying the day or perhaps how his weekend was or maybe even how he's liking the new classes of the semester, his mind is translating all of that into, "Holy cow. She must like me." Yeah, because any normal young woman couldn't simply just be trying to become your friend. I mean, the girl doesn't even know you but you got it mister! After one brief 3 minute conversation and an awkward side hug, she's already got the dates planned for your wedding, colors and all.
Really?
Does it not ever occur to some guys that it truly is possible for a girl to want to talk to you because she wants to be your friend? I mean, you're new to the area, you go to church together so shouldn't you be happy that people want to talk to you, get to know you a bit? And not automatically assume that all this friendly girl wants to do is marry you? 9 times out of 10, boys, she doesn't like you, especially if you've just met.
So, you wanted to know what it's like living inside a girl's head. Well, here's a treasure you can tuck away and pull out whenever you're feeling confused: If you think a girl likes you after one maybe two conversations but you think that's just a little creepy so you stop talking to her and as a result she stops trying to be your friend, you have no right, or in other words, don't you dare think that you can complain that you wish you knew more girls and so on because the only person to blame is yourself.
It makes me sick to see it! It happens almost every week! Guys, WAKE UP! Pull your heads OUT of the ostrich hole of stupidity and cockiness and smell the potent coffee! Girls like to talk, girls like to get to know new people! Don't assume anything. Because we all know what happens when you assume! And who wants to create that awkwardness? Certainly not me.
One last thing, fellas, next time a girl asks you a question or seems interested in that song that your playing on the piano (in a very public venue, might I add) or wants to know what your favorite game is, don't assume that she wants to marry you and have your babies.
You have no idea how much I'm sickened by the male race right now...

Wait...What!?

Okay, so, you know when life throws you lemons and everyone tells you to make lemonade? Yeah, well, my new response to that it this: When life throws you lemons, throw them back and demand the oranges you asked for in the first place!
Okay, now, you have to understand that I understand the whole "life and lemons" dealio (Make a good situation out of a bad one... yada yada yada) BUT why is it that so many people just sit idly by and accept whatever fate comes to them? They don't take the initiative to ask or even to DO! For Pete's sake people! Get off your tooshies and LIVE! It's just really sad to me.
Honestly, that doesn't have too much to do with my actual point but it goes hand in hand. Kind of.
Anyway, I'm at a point right now where life is just extremely CONFUSING. It's hard because I like to have a 2 year plan. At least. Now, I know that there are some things that just can't be planned, somethings happen and I can't control how or when but for the things I CAN control, I like to. Call me a control freak but I like to be organized! For example, I have no idea what I would like to do in the next couple of years. I know I want to go to school but I'd also like to do something called an ILP, (International Language Program) and helped teach English to Russian children...in Russia. But of course that costs money and the time that I'm there I wouldn't be working so when I got back to school I wouldn't have money. UNLESS I saved up enough so that by the time I got back I'd be fine. The ILP also has ways of fundraising but I'm horrible with that...
There are other things are factoring into this mess too. Like people, or the lack thereof (yeah, that won't make sense to any of you I'm sure...) Basically, life is just confusing. I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing! UHG!
Anyway, that's my lament for the day. But I'm happy though. I'm not as stressed as I may sound, really. For the most part life is great! I'm a happy girl. Just a confused one. :)

I Don't Know How To Title This!

Relief Society is amazing. No questions asked. The Lord is even more so. He knows what you need to hear when you need to be humbled and he knows who to send to say it. Sometimes it's surprising though. Sometimes that messenger is yourself.
I don't know if this happens to anyone else but sometimes people come to me for advice. (Okay, I know that happens to everyone at one point but there's something else.) After I've heard their story be it happy, sad, angry, confused or what have you, I start in on helping them sort it all out. Not that my almost 20 years of life holds so much advice for others that they should even come to me...Anyway, then as you're giving your advice you say something that fixes a huge problem you've been avoiding. Anyone? Anyone? Don't lie to yourself, it's happened to you before.
Well, today this happened to me in reverse. I was the one pouring out my frustrations about something and then I said one little sentence that just made everything click. It was the most embarrassing "duh" moment I think I've ever had. I doubt the person I was talking to even realized it but I felt like an idiot.
Now for why Relief Society was so amazing. So, you know when you get a piece of knowledge and you don't know what do to with it? Kind of like, "Gee, I know I should do this but how do I approach it gently and with care and concern?" Yes well, THAT was why Relief Society was amazing today. It was clearly outlined for me by the teacher and the girls that participated (again, including myself-more "duh" moments). All in all today was a day of learning and growth. The tender mercies of the Lord are incredible. And who knows? Maybe there are even more to come and the day is barely halfway through!

Well, It's the New Year.

Yes, 2010 is now here and with it comes a lot of exciting things. My 20th birthday (holy cow) two of my friends are getting home from their missions in April another in July, one of my 3 best friends is getting married in April...it's just going to be a very VERY good year! Another splendid this this new year brings is resolutions. Yes, my friends, it's time to put into action all the wonderful and exciting New Year's Resolutions I've concocted for myself. I have 4. But first let's visit last year...
2009 Resolution
No caffeine.-This little bugger was hard at first but then I was grateful that I moved here to Utah where you can find almost any beverage caffeine free! It's splendid. I gave it up because a-it really isn't all that good for you 2-I was addicted to Dr. Pepper (who can blame me??) and c-It didn't help me at all. In fact I never felt energized from it. I always felt lazy and tired. It was no bueno. But I made it through the year without once drinking caffeine. I am very proud of myself! :)
Now for 2010...
1-No eating out except for special occasions. (i.e. Birthdays, homecomings, etc.) This I decided because, for one, I'm a poor college student and it'll save me LOTS of money and two because I have plenty of food here at home. :)
2-No Soda. Not only will this help my teeth and possibly my weight, it'll help my energy! And Heaven knows I need all the energy I can get! I don't think this will be a challenge since I usually just have water everywhere I go. And since I'm not eating out, I don't think this will really be a problem. :)
3-No "sweets" during the week. Now, I define sweets as any of the following: candy, cake, pie, pudding, etc. So this may in fact be a challenge because I love me some candy and I have plenty left over from Christmas presents and birthday parties but I still have the weekends where I can have the sweet stuff. I was going to say no sweets at all but knowing me that would be too much of a restriction. So I am allowing myself to eat some on the weekends and during holidays. I think this will work out just splendidly.
4-Finish the Book of Mormon by April. I started last year and then my ward started a challenge in, oh what was it, October? or November?...Anyway, the challenge was to finish it by the end of the school year. Right now I have 2 chapters left in Mosiah and after I tackle Alma I should be good!
So there you have it. My four New Year's resolutions. I hope that I can stick to these like glue! I also hope that you all have made some and have the strength not to bend or break! HAPPY NEW YEAR!