Friday, November 26, 2010
Miss Muffet Revisited
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
What's The Name Of The Game?
Monday, November 22, 2010
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Is It Possible?
It is really likely that liking isn't like me at all?
What is "liking" anyway?
And why, WHY does the whole of mankind
seem to shy away from liking?
I like you.
You like me.
That's how people make friends.
This "liking" thing.
That doesn't mean that we're meant to be attached
I may take a different approach to
liking
than you do.
But don't flatter yourself
in thinking that I
am dependent on you for any kind of happiness.
I depend on myself for that,
thank you very much.
Yes, it's true
I'm a little goofy,
flirty,
outgoing
(heaven forbid)
around you.
Don't think that that is me
trying to get you to fall in love with me.
I don't expect you to.
I'm not some crazy colored
bird from the Amazon
who is dancing around trying to
get you to notice me.
If you like me, fine.
If you notice me, even better.
But nothing I do is for you.
It's for me.
So that I can feel better.
What's sad is that for once I was happy just being liked. I was happy being myself and not having to worry that you would think that I was in love with you.
Guess I was wrong.
Again.
Friday, November 12, 2010
Some More Health Updates
I can't express deeply enough how much I know he loves me and protects me.
I think that is important to establish.
Yesterday I went to the hospital to have an EGD done. An EGD (esophagogastroduodenoscopy) is a diagnostic endoscopic procedure that visualizes the upper part of the gastrointestinal tract up to the duodeum (first section of the small intestine). I went in for this procedure because I've been dealing with heartburn for over a year and a half. My doctor thought it would be smart to do.
Good thing my doctor is smart.
During the EDG, they found some suspicious tissue on my esophagus. They biopsied it and, though I do not have any results and won't until next Thursday, the doctors believe that I have what is called GERD which can lead to Barret's Esophagus.
GERD
is a chronic regurgitation of acid from the stomach into the lower esophagus.
(This is not a good thing for your esophagus)
If it is just GERD, it can be resolved with frequent EGDs, to monitor any esophagal changes, and a medication used for Acid reflux/heartburn. Currently I am taking Nexium.
Barrett's Esophagus
Barrett's esophagus is a condition in which the color and composition of the cells lining your lower esophagus change, usually because of repeated exposure to stomach acid.
Barrett's esophagus is most often diagnosed in people who have long-term gastroesophageal reflux disease (GERD) — a chronic regurgitation of acid from the stomach into the lower esophagus. Only a small percentage of people with GERD will develop Barrett's esophagus.
A diagnosis of Barrett's esophagus can be concerning because it increases the risk of developing esophageal cancer. Although the risk of esophageal cancer is small, monitoring and treatment of Barrett's esophagus focuses on periodic exams to find precancerous esophagus cells. If precancerous cells are discovered, they can be treated to prevent esophageal cancer.
Treatment
Treatment options for Barrett's esophagus depend on the grade of changes in the cells of your esophagus, your overall health and your own preferences. If you would like to see a breakdown of the treatments please click HERE.
As for my own mental sanity dealing with all of this, I'm fine. I really truly am. It could be worse but it isn't. According to the surgeon, it was good that I went in when I did. The earlier these things are found, the better chance I have of getting it taken care of.
I've been very blessed by the Lord and for that I am more grateful than I can say.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
PCOS
Polycystic ovary disease affects hormone cycles. Hormones help regulate the normal development of eggs in the ovaries. It is not completely understood why or how hormone cycles are interrupted, although there are several ideas.
Follicles are sacs within the ovaries that contain eggs. In polycystic ovary disease, there are many poorly developed follicles in the ovaries. The eggs in these follicles do not mature and, therefore, cannot be released from the ovaries. Instead, they form cysts in the ovary.
This can contribute to infertility. The immature follicles and the inability to release an egg (ovulate) are likely caused by low levels of follicle stimulating hormone (FSH), and higher than normal levels of male hormones (androgens) produced in the ovary.
Women are usually diagnosed when in their 20s or 30s. Women with this disorder often have a mother or sister who has symptoms similar to polycystic ovary disease.
*With this there are similar symptoms of type 2 Diabetes. I DO NOT have type 2 diabetes but I am at a higher risk for it and breast and endometrial cancer.
Currently my doctor (who is fabulous) is treating it with Metformin. This is due to the fact that my insulin (which I am not intolerant of just resistant to) doesn't know exactly what to do with the sugar that is produced by my liver. Because of this I have High Blood Pressure and my body stores the sugar as fat. Preventing me from losing weight. But there is a way around this! (Please see below)
Metformin: is an oral anti-biotic drug. It is the first-line drug of choice for the treatment of type 2 diabetes. It is also used in the treatment of PCOS and has been investigated for other diseases where insulin resistance may be an important factor.
Metformin will now tell my insulin that it's okay to do its thing. It assists in helping insulin do its job. This will result in me being able to lose weight, process food like a normal person and help me fight off getting Type 2 diabetes. Losing weight is a key part of my health right now and Metformin (NOT a weight loss drug) helps my body to let go instead of hold on. By losing weight other aspects of my health can start to realign themselves so that I can start being more "normal". It's a process but it's something and I am excited to get started.
If you have any questions, please feel free to post the questions in a comment or if we're Facebook friends and you don't feel comfortable asking a question for the world to see, send me a message. I'm more than happy to answer ANY questions.



